Strange Sex Dream

About a week ago, it happened. I cannot quite figure its significance. I have shared it with a couple of folks who are just as puzzled as me. So I decided to bring it to the house here and let you all offer some insight.

As an actor, I experience a great deal of stress on a an almost daily basis...the nature of the profession dictates that survival skills are on display very often. It can be exhausting and even debilitating on occasion. And with the current economic climate, the challenges affect all of us (and I do mean ALL of us) even more fiercely, more personally. I often use sex as a way to take the air out of all that internal stress...for me, it works. I do wish I had someone in my life who was more evident, more prevelant in helping me do so...but that's another story.

I offered up my home a few years ago to an old college friend. We'll call her "Lou". Lou tracked me down via e-mail and was really down and out. Lived in the Twin Cities and was looking for a new start after some really serious difficulty. Moving to Chicago was something she wanted to talk about...So I talked with her and, after a couple of months, said that she could crash with me until she got on her feet and moved to her own new place.

What a fucking mistake. She had changed SO much from when I knew her before. Lou had gained about 80 pounds (which in itself is not a problem for me). Her personality, as time passed, became surly and negative. Constantly putting me down because as she put it "You need to get a REAL job!" Bitch.....She knew of my own sexual attitudes and constantly put them down. I got to the point to when I wanted to masturbate, I just said to myself "Fuck it" and stroked my cock in my bedroom as I wanted, as loudly as I wanted, for my own pleasure... as it should be for all of us.

NOW THIS IS WHERE THE DREAM STARTS.....

I was at my dinner table, reading the paper. Lou came in from her job -- a job I had helped her get, by the way -- and was pissed off at something. She was yelling. She was throwing things around. Then she turned to me and started yelling and bitching like I was married to her. And finally, finally that broke it. I started yelling right back at her. It was loud and profane and offensive...the neighbors could hear. And I could take no more.

I said "FUCK YOU, LOU! JUST FUCK YOU!!!"

I went into the living room and began ripping my clothes off, not caring where they went, what they looked like. And Lou continues her assault, as I am doing so, bitching right back, standing up because I just couldn't take it anymore. I began stroking my cock furiously, with anger and purpose. I wanted to take it off my torso and beat her with it, to tell the truth. Harder and harder I got, and she is not letting up on me. I got so large that it grew up to my face -- where I then proceeded to put my own cock in my own mouth and give myself head. Still, she is just like the old woman down the street when you were a kid who wouldn't let it go...

And I got closer and closer to my orgasm. It was a vision I had never seen myself in before, and I kept sucking myself off harder and more enthusiastically, and my battle with Lou suddenly turned from namecalling and going at her toe-to-toe to loud, unstoppable groans that pushed me on to my cum.

And then...there it was. I started cumming as hard as I had ever cum in my life. Spunk started pouring out the sides of my mouth and down my face onto the floor. I kept pumping and pumping. I got to that point where there was no more cum and I just kept involuntarily jerking in my body. Finally I got to the point where I couldn't do it anymore and I collapsed onto the floor.

When I recovered, I opened my eyes. And Lou was gone. Packed her bags and left....

Now that's not how she left, of course. She did, after 10 months...ten fucking months of allowing myself to be taken advantage of...move into her own place. Haven't seen her in nearly four years.

Now....WHAT in the world could this dream mean? Any ideas?